It has been a while since I posted. I need to start getting on here daily or weekly to write down my thoughts. I lot has happened since I wrote.
July:
We went to the Pangburn Parade and then we met up with a friend at Little Rock for the rest of the time but we did not watch fireworks this year. The kids are afraid of the fireworks so I did not buy any and we did not watch them. Here are some pictures of our 4th of July (See below text).
Austin and I both went to see the eye doctor. I am getting new glasses and he needed glasses with bifocals! They are working on getting it authorized with his ARKids for him to do Vision Therapy there at the clinic. I also went and saw Dr. Clements (mental health professional) about my self. I have been having irritablity and mood swings at home and work that was starting to concern me. I found out that I either have ADHD with Depression/Anixety or Bipolar II (hypomania instead of the hypermania). So I have been started on Addrellal to see if it helps.
Brian and I have not yet talked. I have tried and get blowed off or there is an excuse of why we can not meet with Bro. Billy at that time. We are for sure going to send Austin to the Christian/Home School. It frustrates me that he doesn't want to seem to talk about things. I am ready but he is not. I ask for something for the kids and he will get for Austin but not the other two. For example, both boys needed boxers/pullup and I told him they needed it well he got Austin some but neglected to get Kyle any so my Mom had to buy Kyle some. I am trying to keep the faith and do Bible Study but it is so hard to hope that things will work out when the door gets slammed in my face with him shutting off from me. I can not seem to get him alone since his family is always around him. I have voiced my concerns to him several times.
Austin did get his glasses fitted and is wearing them to read and play games. Says he can see better with them on. Brian paid his tuition for this month. I was blessed to be able to pay my bills this time with my first check so my next check can be for this month's insurance and next month rent and my glasses. The down side is that paperwork got lost in the mail so my food stamps have been cut off. My grandmother (Dad's mom) has been placed on hospice due to renal failure and is now on morphine patch. My dad called to tell me that we needed to come see her. So next week we are headed to Ashdown to visit with her and the rest of the family before Austin goes to school. When I work Austin will stay with his grandparents for school but when I am not I will take him to school. I have an appointment with him at Families INC in a few weeks. Kyle has already went and got the ball running with him. I like the case worker and have become at ease with him. I went to the dentist for the first time in years and learned that I have advanced gum disease and I could wait for problems or I could get active and get things taken care of before it got bad. I opted to take action so on August 4th I went in and my bottom teeth removed. I have a wonderful bruise on my chin from it as well. In Janurary I will go get the top done. I am going back to work for the first time since it occured tomorrow since I am not hitting the pain pills that much now.
My bruised face-no bottom teeth now :(
Catilyn (Above); Austina and Kyle in pool (Below)
