KIds

The three older kids are still with Brian and his new wife. Now I have told by the court that I am not stable mentally enough to safetly be with my kids so I am to be supervised with them until I get a letter from a mental health professional saying I am stable enough to be with them. I have yet to see them as DHS refuses to supervise as they are not involved with it and Brian and his wifey refuse to do it as well. So I have to settle for a 10 min phone call once/twice a week where I am on speaker phone. I still have no lawyer.WE have moved to Newport where Mike is working at a local factory at night and I am currently waiting on a job to come open. In the mean time we have found a great church that we are going to and just finished VBS last night. Now we are dealing with AC wanting to stop working. I called landlord earlier today and it was fixed and now I think it is back to blowing hot again! Guess I need to get a filter. Please keep us in your prayers as we really need them.

Beverly Lewis

I have gotten hooked on Beverly Lewis books! I love learning about the Amish from reading her books.I recently watched The Shunning which is the first of a book that she wrote that was turned into a movie. I am anxiously waiting on the second part of the movie to come out so I can watch it as well. I will start writing reviews for different Christian novels I read from here on out.

I do highly recommend if you are new to the Christian faith and you like romance then pick up a Beverly Lewis book and see how well you like it!

I have the kids or at least two of the three since Kyle is still in Wood Ridge for the time being. I was advised that the new doctor wants to see how Austin does without the medication. I think it is the fact that Brian don't want him on the medication is why there are trying to take him off. I can tell a difference and all they have done thus far is take away one dose of medication called Risperdal. He has bounced around all day and has barely sat still even to watch TV. Even now he is wiggling while trying to lay down adn watch a movie.

Update

Well, a lot of things have happened since I last posted. I met a guy online named Mike. We are still together now. The kids and I moved to Ashdown to be closer to my family. We moved into a trailer right down from my grandmother's last month. Mike and I found out that I was pregnant before Christmas but then lost the baby in January. I was devasated more then he was. Then this past Friday I found out I was pregnant again. This baby is due 10-11-10. I am hoping that this is a sticky one and we make it to the EDD. My first appointment is next week. I am excited and apprehensive at the same time due to just having a miscarriage. I feel that it is in God's hands and trying not to worry.

I have been a little sick at certain smells though. I will check in when I can and post updates of the pregnancy and new relationship. God Bless!

Today

well I am going to let the kids go see their daddy this weekend. I took the NET test at Batesville wanting to get in and do RN school. I did not do so good on it but I hope to make it in if it is God's Will. My divorce is off to a start. Waiting on what will happen next. I did finally get back on Food Stamps and Austin is attending a public school. He is doing well in the school. I started him on the Focalin and had to stop it due to the fact he had a reaction to it. He was itching so we stopped it. I have been training an LPN at work so that has been an experience I have enjoyed.

it's ending.....another beginning

I went to Ashdown on the 1st for my 10 year class reunion. I am doing well with all that was there. had a great time. I came back to the apartment on the following Sunday to have divorce papers in my mailbox. I have not received the originals but do have the copies. My lawyer is going to see about getting it thrown out of Cleburne County and into White County. My husband wants the kids and me to have visitation. I want the kids and him and his family only supervised visitation. There are things going on in the family that I don't want to know about but I might need to in order to keep my kids. Please keep us in your prayers as we go through this period of time. I have felt so much better without being around him that I know this is for the best. When things are said and done all the battles are done I will have a decision to make about where to go or stay. I don't know who all is reading so I will not say more. I will say I will fight with all I have and all my parents (both sets) have to make sure I keep custody of the children. This is what will be best for the kids in my opinion.

Hope is lost

I have been a whay for a while. So let me first update you since gnosed Bipolar. I am on medication and well adjusted to it now. On Saturday the 24th I went to get Austin from his dad and grandparents when everything exploded. By this I mean while I was getting Austin's playstation that was there gathered up I was told to stop and leave the room. I was pissed off that Brian had not called me to let me know Austin was not there and not returning phone call to when he will arrive. It seemed that Brian had talked with a lawyer and was advised to keep austin from me. I was unable to see or talk to my son for nearly two weeks. I got him back and to break control from the family I went and enrolled him another school which he says he loves. He has not let me out of his sight since he came back. He said he was Sad that he was unable to talk to me. We went to the DDC and was told that he needed a blood test for thryoid panel to determine if there is a malfunction and to be referred ACH for height less than 3% for his age group. His weight is actually at the 75% now! They (which I disagree) stated no ADD/ADHD indicated, however I am sideing with the first opinion and he will be on medication to determine if it works or not. If he does not need it then it will have the opposite effect or make him sleepy and I will let the doctor know to try something else or close his case for the time being. I have seen him have focus issues as well as others that have been in the household. With the new school he will probably need it since the class will be bigger than just 5 students. It hurts to have to distance myself from my church but they have left me no choice due to stating they are not for what has taken place and have sided with my husband and his family. Now for the latest: THis was the weekend of my 10 year class renioun. We had a great time and pictures will be on my facebook page. We got home to Searcy about 5 p.m. today. I checked my mail box to find that on the 28th (one day prior to going to DCC) Brian filed for divorce and did not say anything to me at the appointment however he did give me Austin back and neglected to ask about the other two children we have together. IN the papers I got today when I got back he expects to get custody for the kids. I don't think so and there will be a big fight with this. Please keep myt family in your prayers as we go through a divorce and custody battle. I am the best one for custody of my kids (yes I said mine since he doesn't seem concerned with them at all). I have been told by this man that I loved and still love that "I didn't want the other two you did" although he now wants custody and me visitiation rights. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH This is all his sis and mom talking and it aint going to happen. They have called DHS and the police on me the past week. I am not going to let it get me down. I know that I will have to trust in the Lord that history repeats itself and he screws up yet again and losses this battle.