Update

Ok, I found out more distrubing things that went on. I still have not gone to see him so I guess I will do that on Sunday since I am off. I am however looking at buying a house. I have started the loan process along with looking at houses. Here is on that I like.

http://www.realtor.com/realestateandhomes-detail/Heber-Springs_AR_72543_1101617438

My mom is wanting me to come down there but there are not any jobs during the day at the moment and I love my church and friends I have made up here. That way Brian can be close to the kids however he will not be left alone with them at all at least unsupervised. Have a feeling that if the police discover what I did when they look at his phone closely he will be there for quite some time. Still no word from the Det. if they want my computer or not.

Kyle is doing well on the new medication right now. It does mellow him a bit as far as I can see. This week is sprnig break for the boys so we all got to sleep in and of course my eyes open at 5:30 a.m. I am so ready for tax season to be done. I will not be back next year. I will find another nursing job if I want a second job at least then I can work two days and still have two days off. And the boredom is bad.

I am finishing my second round of antibotics for my strep thorat. I will be having tonsilectomy on April 27th and will be off work a week. Two of the ladies at work have offered to help me with the kids if I ever need them to. I am blessed to work with an amazing group of people and go to church another amazing group.

Catilyn is now 2! She definetly has attitude and a personality. She is so silly to watch. She does not like it when brothers want to play with her babies at all. It is such a warm day I wish I was off so we could be at park. Tomorrow it is supposed to rain and then we have church tomorrow night since I will be working Wednesday and I worked Sunday (yesterday). I do like working Sundays though b/c it is so laid back since we don't have Dr comeing in and out. and no one is discharged over the weekend as well. Our Dr is on Spring Break with his kids so we have the backup. She gets them in and gets them out quicker then he does. And she TALKS to them!!!! Lol, the Nurse Mgr has made the regular DR start that and it hates it! He doesn't want to see them or hear them. IF one goes off while he is there we better be doing something or he comes and tells us what to do.

Continue to keep my family and myself in your prayers. We are going through a really tough time that I am afraid is only going to get tough. I am just so thankful that The Lord has provided me with a job that is secure and holds so much potential. I can do a lot of things so I will be able to provide for my kids if I need to.

Update

So it has been nearly two weeks since I posted. I am handling single motherhood alright. I am sick yet again though...another round of strep for me. Tonsils will be coming out on April 27th. 

Last night I went and turned in Brian's cell phone per Det. Kim asking for it. I made my statement to her as well. My inlaws were also questioned. My sister in law did admit to deleting a number off the phone. Not sure what number or why but anyway the police department let her go this afternoon due to her tampering with evidence. FIL is ticked that they are making big deal since they "should have taken it that day then". FIL is urging me to get a will set up so I can name who will take care of kids if I ever have an accident or something while he is in jail that way the kids are not place in foster care. Apparently Brian has been confusing to things to parole officer and they are investigating what has went on. I was told by the Det that I probably needed to get out. I am currently still in our house since I don't want to rent anything at the moment. I did write Brian and sent him some articles from a website that was suggested to me from a lady on Vessels unto Honour. The letter stated guidelines (Attends church with us, counseling with Bro Billy, help out in house, not going to his parents after work unless he is picking up boys, no phone with internet/media net access, go to outpatient or inpatient for his "Impulsiviness") and let him know that we would be doing a temporary seperation when he gets back home. meaning the kids and I would be moving out.  I will talk to him either Friday or Saturday night according to his dad so I guess he had talked to him today while I was at my doctor's appointments. 

Pictures: Top: Kyle,  Middle: Catilyn, Bottom: Austin (oldest)
I am still dealing with the effects of last night. I have shed some tears today. I know I need to make a decision and things going depending on what I decide. I can't go through this we are good for two years and then I am going to screw up. I went through his Blackberry (phone) today and found that he had been on some sites via the internet which is where the parole violation came in at and hence failing the test. He apparently from looking at one site has been doing this since November. His parents are willing to support me and help me with the kids for now but my mother in law was ticked after the last time he screwed up and had to do just one kid and now there are three. The biggest problem will be to get the boys on and off their buses mainly off of them since I work 12 hours when I work at the hospital. I am working at the tax office for another month (until 4-15). I am going to be doing prayer, study and research in order to make my decision. Tomorrow is visitation at the jail but I will more and likely not go just yet. I want him to have time to think and I want time to think as well. I may say things and upset the visit at the moment. Just can't believe after he promised me that he figured out I was the only one he wanted that he would mess up and try to find a "friend with benefits". I am hurt.

And the third occurs

Ok, so things come in threes. We have all heard that saying. First my van's power steering went out so we fixed it. Next we have septic system pumped only to be told things in it needs to be replaced. Then last night on the way home from going to get a part we needed around house my power steering line collapses on its self so I have no steering in van. Then today DH takes me to work this morning and I let him know I was having someone from work to take me and Cady-Bug home from Searcy. I get a text about 645 saying that my SIL is outside waiting for me. So I tell the lady never mind they are here to get me. Then the sitter comes up and says they are going out to eat and can either take her with them or they will wait if I am about done. I let her know aunt is in parking lot so take her to her. I get in the car and we go to Sonic for drinks and me food since lunch was at 1200 today. My MIL hands me my husband's phone and an envelope that has his name wrote on it. I am thinking out a "Dear Jane" letter. I open the envelope to find his check in there. OK that is fine. We get going down the road and again and they drop it. He had been put back in jail on parole violation and will be there for 90 days and will serve it at malvern (2 hours-3 hours from house). He had failed his lie detector test that he is required to take. I am not sure what all he failed and do not know if I really want to know what all happened. My MIL said it was his new phone, he had just got a Blackberry. So I don't know what he did exactly or again do I really want to. So I am now a single mom trying to pay for a house and two vehicles on one salary of being a nurse and working part time at tax office. I wish that everyone be in prayer for us during this trying time.