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I am feeling very depressed, stressed, anxious and feeling like I have been in a pressure cooker and I am about to let my steam out. I have had a very stressful 24 hours it seems. I am trying to discipline my three year old who has ADHD and it backs fire so then I am ticked b/c I am told to discipline him more and stay consisent but then I am slapped in the face by an accusation that I abuse my children. I feel like all are out to get me and against me. THey want to take my kids from me it seems or make my life so mireseable I will want commit myself. I know this is not true but can't feel like maybe it is. I feel like I have no support and keep getting threw down when I try and do soemthign right for myself or my children either parenting or education decisions. I feel like those around me with think I am incompentent to do anything and need to be told how to do something or be disciplined saying I am too nice with my discpline with my kids. I feel like I have no support and all are against me waiting and wanting me to fail at something. I don't like failure at all and am even more ticked that I could be an RN if I had had the support I needed while I was going to school. I wish and wish that I would have been told that the degree I had would not amount to anything and I could have went into nursing sooner.

at the moment I just want to cry, scream and punch things to release this built up pressure. I hate feeling like this. I really wished my husband had kept his nose clean or at least will talk to be about things. It is heartbreaking and disappointing. I feel like I making the same mistakes that family members have bad with their lives. I fear that my three old will grow up and self medicate to control his hyperactivity and impulsiveness.